Post-India Syndrome.

Feel my feelings.
How do I do that?

By keeping silent on the exterior;
And still in the interior.
That's when I can feel my feelings.

But right now, at this very moment;
I feel a sense of longing;
A sense of wanting things to be different.
I want to be back in India.

Bilal was right when he said;
"You feel sad going home, no?"
(Though I said I was half-half)

Sunrises at the Wish-fulfilling Tree were amazing.
Though I know that sunrise and sunset are one of the same;
As in space there is only ONE SUN.
And the Sun does not stop shining, ever.

I remember sitting on the ever faithful rocks;
Snapping shots of the Sun as it appears to be rising;
Listening to the music of nature as the moon sets;
The birds chirping as they talk to one another;
Lorries starting to move around as the town wakes up;
Bells ring as people pay their homage.

I recorded the music of nature.
Doesn't it sound so breathtaking?
Wait till you see the photos!
(That is if I ever decide to upload them here)

I realize my mind's nature of making me suffer.
This is a mind created emotion;
A suffering that is birth from not living in the Presence.

Be conscious of your breath, Sasha.

I learnt that when I'm conscious of my breath;

The thinking processes stop, or rather are put on hold.

It's amazing!

It is an easy way to practice Presence.

Though it requires constant practises;

(As often as every minute)

It's worth the work.

There is no one destination to be at;

Nor is there a certain level to attain;

There is just the success of living in Presence.

There is no me, my or mine;

There is just a collective 'I';

Whereby everyone reflects a part of me.

I'm amazed at how God created us.

I'm still blown away by the sight of Baba's manifestation.

It hasn't settled in yet;

The fact that I'm home.

It starts to hurt a little.

Okay, I'm lying to myself.

It hurts, a lot.

When I'm in India, I wished I'm home.

When I'm home, I wished I'm in India.

Gosh Sasha, why are you so demanding?!

That my friend, was my ego talking to my self.

Interesting, no?

(I sound so India Indian typing that phrase)

I shall allow myself to feel this feeling;

Only for tonight.

Tomorrow;

Chop chop!

Whip yourself back in shape, Sasha!

You know you can do it;

'Cause you've done it once too many!

By the way, today was the first time in almost 10 years;

That I actually took a blood test in a conscious state.

Only because I need a complete medical check up for JPA.

Otherwise, God knows when would I ever do it.

Yes, Eeping used to be extremely scared of needles.

Today, Sasha showed Eeping how to overcome it.

Well, not really overcome;

But she did manage to go through it without screaming. :D

Lovingly,
Sasha Yeoh Eeping